I'm losing it.

2017-01-31 16:44:34 by MelonKid

I seriously can't take this anymore, writing on some website about my struggles like everybody else, but wouldn't some of you do the same? I'm only 14 and I have to deal with this annoying shit at my "home", I can't take it anymore, I don't want to snap, but it's getting to the point, and I really don't want this to happen, sure, I can make people laugh, but that isn't even right. Because listen to me.

In this world, everything is morbid, surreal, and bizarre, and I have a feeling I am something important, but I'm so tired of my mother always blaming me for shit, and all this, yet my last post was about inspiration and audacity, I seriously don't have the inspiration and audacity left in me, I hope to recover it soon, usually, some person will stop by and comment "Attention Whore" or they'd try and be funny and clever, well you know what.

Fuck you.

Just like the subject title says "I'm losing it", you may ask why I'm "losing it", it's may be personal business but please help me out here, I want to animate but I can't because all this stress, and motherfucking school, I'm only 14 and I have to put up with this, I don't think anyone should have to suffer anything like this, I give my condolences to those who suffer worse, and no, I'm not going to kill myself, I'm not a pussy, I have the guts to do it, but screw that.

So if you're reading this on the internet.

You're a good person for hearing me complain about my life, even though I know others have it worse.

 

- MelonKid


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JK-FlipFlopJK-FlipFlop

2017-01-31 17:12:43

Yes. The Japanese have it the worst in school. But I can relate to what you're going through. You're being expected to act like an adult, but you're not an adult yet. And school always was a drag. I started gangwars and pulled pranks to deal with my feelings in high school. Not saying you should do the same, but I don't think I would have survived if I didn't act like an asshole.

MelonKid responds:

You have to do what you must do.


Sasha-LopezSasha-Lopez

2017-01-31 18:22:10

Your parents seem to expect so much more from you....maybe way to much at times. I know the feeling. Highschool was tough but for me it was another kind of "tough" I'd rather not explain on here. Trust me, you're not alone. Some here that go out of their way to call you things when you're trying to pour your feelings out are the ones in the wrong.

If you want you can PM me here and we can chat. I don't know how much help I can be but I'm atleast a good listener.

MelonKid responds:

Throughout this week, I've learned that feelings are only things the small and complicated human brain can make whenever an event is happening, some say everything happens for a reason, and some say everything happens because it just happens, but truth is, death is soon and life is early, no matter what, we're near the end, but throughout this journey, we all discover enjoyable lessons, lessons to which we use in our quite short but beautiful lives.